change for the better

if i could change it all
what would i do
if i could change at all
would i know you
would we have laughed
would i have pain
if everything
would rearrange
i loved you once
you couldn't see
so i moved on
and now you see me
you see the pain
the hurt
the love
but you missed out
on the above
and now im his
his and not yours
so all the hurt
the anger
the lies
they leave me now
like butterflies
I AM FREE!

Lost In The Darkness

Lost in the darkness,
Forever in tears,
Drowning my sorrows,
And living in fear

I'll never live,
And I'll never die,
And all because,
I'll never try

I'll never try,
because of you,
And now I don't,
Know what i should do

Should I scream,
Or fight or kick,
No all those options,
Make me sick

So I just sit,
Sit and cry,
Because of you,
I'll never die

death of a tragedy

an older poem i wrote when i was going through a difficult time in my life, my grandparents had just died, and the person i had been going out with just dumped me, so here is what i wrote

I wish I knew
How to forget
The way you felt
The way I'd get

Running fingers
Through your hair
Now all they feel
Is the cold air

We used to laugh
And joke, and play
And all my fears
Would fade away

But now YOU hurt me
As they all do
Just like the rest
They're just like YOU

You said you'd stay
But now you're gone
I start to cry
"I'm all alone!"

I scream and kick
But still no answer
Why won't you LOOK
Why won't you answer

I look around
At all the graves
The cold stone breaking
Seems so depraved

The sight I see
Is so forlorn
My family
A spot not wornI

t says my name
I start to cry
The tears that fall
Say "Why'd I die?"